Thursday, July 12, 2018. I have the honor and privilege of co-leading a group of 16 men down a path towards healing, restoration, regeneration and ultimately heart change.
I share this for a couple of reasons.
First, It was a journey and a process to get me to a point where I felt like this is what I am supposed to do for the next 9-10 months. I was not sure I was ready, I wasn’t sure if I was doing this out of obedience our out of pride. After weeks of prayer and seeking counsel, it became clear to me that I am supposed to be right where I am.
Second, I have watched these 16 men patiently wait for the emergence of 2 leaders to lead them on this journey. I saw their frustration as months passed and I saw their commitment and their obedience to the process as the leaders emerged and the group began to form.
Where does the equipping come in? It’s pretty amazing when I stop to think about all of the things that have occurred in my life since I volunteered to lead this group. I had doubts, I had feelings of inadequacy… Through the pouring into my life by a friend that I confided in, I was affirmed in the fact that it is not up to ME, I facilitate and God does the rest!
I was reminded that the evil one is going to do everything he can to stop this group from starting. I also had an opportunity to share my story to the group. This impacted the entire group in such a way that it brought a new level of trust into the relationship before it really even started. They know without a shadow of a doubt that both my co-lead and I have been down this path before and that we will be there to help guide them every step of the way.
I think the most powerful prompting came in a group devotional yesterday about our spiritual world and warfare. Not to get too deep here, what I learned from that devo and the comments by the participants, was that there is a spiritual warfare going on in this world and within ourselves. I am confident that we would all agree there is evil in this world and we all fight against our own demons daily – all of the negative insurgencies that attack us daily and we sometimes choose to battle with a bottle, with a pill, with an inappropriate relationship or anything else that will fill that void we may be feeling. Or not feeling… sometimes those negative insurgencies are not attacking in the form of an addiction, but in our mental health, depression, anxiety, lack of self worth, feeling lost in this world wondering what we are here for.
What I, and this group of men have realized is that there is only one thing that can truly fill that void and that is a true and intimate relationship with Jesus Christ.
“I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn’t, than live as if there isn’t and to die to find out that there is.”
It is one thing to KNOW that and something else to actually LIVE it out. To set aside our pride, our doubts, our fears and trust in Him as we learn and experience for ourselves His truth and His healing grace.
That is the hope and prayer of this journey we are embarking on. To experience true heart change and turn our lives and wills over to the ONE who can redeem us.
If you feel led, please share in this hope and prayer with us as we kick this off tonight. If you have questions about the program I am referring to, please feel free to reach out.